Well before i even started this blog, the situation has been taken out of my hands.

You really can't trust women. Or ex's i should say. I can't even get out of the house and i'm going stirr crazy. I'm just sick of the shit. Every girl that shows an interest in me, i show a partial interest back in and then they bail. I'm just not enough of a challenge obviously.

My ex that totally broke my heart sounded like she was thinking of wanting something to happen now she's turned it on it's head.

So girls, here's a news flash for you.

I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND YOU!

Here's a charming, nice guy. A real man. Apparently good looking, intelligent, a good provider, apparently a good body, sweet, kind and caring. And i have a few girls after me. At first i'm not interested, but as soon as they start to win me over, the tables turn and i end up chasing after them!

This is NOT how it's supposed to be. Only today, for the first time EVER did i realise this had happened and i metaphorically stopped and said to myself "Wait a minute... what the hell happened here? A minute ago she was chasing me." And i decided to walk away, but not even walk! I RAN! I saw the shit storm coming and i ran to shelter.

I didn't even understand how i got to this point. It's self depreciating, irritating and leaves me starting to think i can't go into relationships because it'll just end up happening again.

I really need to work on my resolve. You know what? Fuck it.

This Is A Declaration

If any woman wants me for who i am, they can chase me. I'm done chasing. Because unlike the assholes out there who don't give a damn about women and how they treat them...

I AM WORTH CHASING

I do care, i do give a damn, i will look after you, i would get married, i want to have kids.

WHAT ON EARTH IS THERE TO NOT WANT TO CHASE ME?!

I'm just saying, i've finally realised i'm a catch is all.

Now i'm a challenge. Writing this, i have more self respect than i had before.